Tuesday, April 28, 2015


I'm finding it really hard to be empathetic as of late and I'm disappointed in myself. I should know better. I should be able to dig deep and feel another's pain. Its a pain I once felt ffs. But instead I am angry with how this is affecting me. I don't agree with how the situation is being handled either. I'm afraid of loss. I'm afraid that my lack of empathy will be evident and enforce arguments against me. I just want to run away. Actually, no. I want to dig deep and be empathetic. From an article I just read:
We will have to put aside all of our debates. Empathy is not a matter of deciding who is right and wrong. It is simply a matter of finding anThis is very true. Give up wanting to control this situation and just be there for someone else. Have faith that it will end. I will not lose what I hold dear. I'm the lucky one here.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

connected, loved, appreciated, valued and desired

I really need to feel connected, loved, appreciated, valued and desired by you. I can't remember where I read this, but I agree that for me especially, my relationships flourish when these connected feelings are expressed and reaffirmed.
I finally have this in spades.  I can't stop forgetting about all the years I did not have it and how miserable I thus felt.  And now.  Every. Day.
I am truly truly blessed.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

saying the right thing

Why didn't you call?" Instead, she could say, "Honey, I was worried about you. Did something happen?"

Ugh. I wish that I could practice this. I want it to be instinctual FFS.  Instead my instinct is to crap on my loved ones.