I'm missing a lot of the context, but thought I might note some of the salient points.
Management is a work activity, but leadership is choice. It's a lens, if you will, something you need to pay attention to.
Do I have leadership credibility? What's my track record for:
making tough decisions
dealing with performance issues
I'd say that I have a lot more miles to go before I can call myself a strong leader. I've got a few notches in my belt, but not enough to give me credibility.
Creditibility derailers. There are many that affect leadership outcomes (e.g. our ability to build teams, meet objectives, influence others). Mine are short-sightedness, risk aversion, conflict avoidance, over and under managing, emotional incompetence. Need to work on these. But how?
Resilience (getting back up when you've fallen, learning from the experience and moving forward) this is key. I've had a lot handed to me in my career so there hasn't been much opportunity to test my resilience. But in my personal life, I'm plenty resilient. Everyday I act with resolve.
Last point is on consciousness. I'm aware, but am I taking deliberate steps to strengthen my leadership? Afterall, "we become what we think about".